Have you ever wondered how it is like when a person’s life just changes in a second? Isn’t it scary how fast your life changes? Whenever i thought about this i was always grateful that that didn't happen to me.I mean my life really has been the same, i haven’t went through a huge change in my life, for example i have been living in the same house for nearly 12 years, and i have been sleeping i the same room with the exact same furniture for nearly 12 years also. So how can my life change? But it did, what i never thought was going to happen was happening, i was moving. I know that seems like nothing i mean everyone one moves right? but i was moving to a place where i know no one, i was moving to a place where everyone says is a bad place, where my friends say that their friends that live there have been so use to hearing shots being fired. I was moving to Bronx, where i never thought i was going to move, where i always hated since i was little, and now i was going to be living there.
When i went to the house yesterday with my dad in Bronx, so we could bring some boxes to put in the house. I was standing in the house with my dad moving around the boxes, i wanted to help but my dad said that i couldn’t because i was too weak, i didn’t have the energy to fight with him so i just sat down on the floor. My dad went outside to get more boxes, i was just sitting all alone, then i just started thinking about how much i am going to miss brooklyn, and my old house,and my friends. I hated my dad for making us move to bronx, i mean i did tell him that i wanted to move but not away from brooklyn, i told him that i was getting tired of living in the same house for 12 years. I thought about Audite she is my best friend and now we both are going to get separated. All of a sudden i noticed that i was crying, i was crying because i missed brooklyn knowing that i was going to back to brooklyn, then why was i crying? Maybe i was crying because i was upset that i was moving to bronx, but if i am crying just thinking about it then what am i going to do when i actually move to bronx? Urgg this is just so stressful, i don’t want to move! and my parents aren’t even saying anything they still are going to move to bronx. God sometimes i just hate them so much but then i love them, i hate them for not listening to me, for not understanding how much i don’t want to go to bronx. But then i love them because they understand that i will need a phone since its going to take a long time for me to go to school, and they are buying me a real phone not those free phones. I mean i do understand that i am being so what stubborn because i am not thinking about my parents problems, but they didn’t have to buy a house so far away from brooklyn. I am just tired, tired about thinking about everything, life can be fun but then it can be so stressful, i just hate that, but oh well i will just have to go through everything and make through life i mean that is why i am here to go through life.
After a few weeks living in the Bronx, I laugh at how i thought the Bronx was going to be and how i was overreacting about moving to Bronx. I guess then i was so use to having no changes in my life that i was afraid of a change in my life, but now i realize that some changes are not good but some changes are good. Now my life is different and i love living in Bronx because the neighborhood that i live in is so beautiful and the people is so friendly, also its fun having little babies living downstairs of me. But i do hate waking up in the mornings, since i have to wake up 5:30! But i finally have my own bathroom! I am really grateful for that. Now i think that a life without a change in it is really boring, and that people shouldn’t be afraid of changes, instead they should overcome it.
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